"Scream, to be heard"

I'm soo sorry its been so long. School's crazy and with the holiday i couldn't really post anything, but here's chapter 14. i hope you like it:)
 
--------------------------------
 
(Courtney’s P.O.V.)
I sat on bed indian-style, tears streaming down my face. How could he do this to me? On the day he’s supposed to say goodbye to me, on the day I’m leaving the tour and we’re not gonna see each other for two months… he doesn’t even attempt to show and no one even has any idea where he is! I went over possible scenarios in my mind and my sobs grew. Who knew what he was doing right now?
 
“Hey, look, it’s gonna be okay. Maybe he just couldn’t take you leaving and he couldn’t bear to say goodbye to you!” Amanda reasoned from her spot on the bed next to me. “I’m sure he has a good reason for not being there.”
 
I considered this. “Well, whatever reason he has, you were right all along. I should never have let him leave last night!” My vision blurred as I remembered last night and everything that had happened. “Do you think he’s just overwhelmed, what with the president and everything?” I asked Amanda hopefully. I could understand that. I mean, with everything that had been going on in the past few days, we were all overwhelmed!

“Well, that could definitel -” She cut off suddenly as my phone rang out from beside me, Alex’s own voice ringing out in the room, my ringtone. She looked at me, her eyes filled with questions.
Just hearing his voice made me break down and I knew Amanda had her answer. She hit the ignore button on the phone and pulled me in for a hug. “He’ll just have to wait, won’t he?”
 
I laughed through my tears and pulled myself off the bed. “You’re right. He can wait. In the meantime, I’m gonna get clean and take a nice, long, hot shower…” I trailed off. “Anyways. Just, ignore the call if he calls again. I shall be back,” I said with a sigh, walking into my bathroom. I stripped, turning on the shower, and stepped under the hot spray and let the rest of the tears fall.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I walked back into my room to the sound of my phone ringing AGAIN. I let out a groan. “Just… give me the phone. He’s waited long enough.” Amanda, who was still in the same position I had left her in, hesitated before handing me the phone, her eyebrows raised as if to question me. “As you said, I’m sure he has a reasonable explanation,” I said to her. Before I could rethink my decision, I punched the ANSWER button, followed by the speaker button. If I was really gonna do this, I wasn’t gonna do it alone. “Hello?”
 
“Court? Thank god. I’ve been trying to call you for hours!” Alex’s voice was tiny coming through the phone, but you could hear the nervousness in his voice.
 
“And I waited for you for hours,” I said haughtily, avoiding Amanda’s eyes. “Where the hell were you?” My voice cracked, betraying the front I had put up.
 
“Courtney… I am so sorry. I can’t believe…” He stopped and it sounded like he was crying. “God, I’m so fucking stupid! Last night… See, I told Jack about what the president said and he… we both really needed something to just help us forget. He suggested…” Alex took a gulp, failing to swallow his tears. “Jack suggested we go to this bar down the street, have a couple of shots to loosen up. I didn’t want to, but I didn’t know what else to do, so we went to the bar… and, well, I guess we went overboard.” He let out a sob and the sound made tears come to my eyes.
 
“Alex… so you’re saying you got drunk? That doesn’t explain you not at least coming back to the bus. It’s not like you could’ve stayed in the bar all night, passed out!” I exclaimed, feeling anger surge through me. What kind of excuse was this?
 
“Just… God, what have I done?” he said, almost to himself. “We didn’t stay at the bar. We… This morning, I woke up in this random hotel. I had no idea what had happened and I didn’t remember anything after my fourth beer. But Jack… well, he had his camera… and last night, he didn’t get as wasted as I did. He… when he woke up this morning, he remembered some stuff, but only vaguely. So he pulled out his camera…” Alex stopped and let out a string of sobs. I could only barely hear Jack in the background, telling Alex that he had to tell me.
 
“Alex, what are you trying to say?” I asked quietly, scared of the answer. I felt Amanda move closer to me, her hand rubbing circles on my back and I knew that she was thinking that same thing as me.

I could feel his reluctance right through the phone. “Courtney… I… I kissed another girl last night,” he blurted out. His sobs grew and grew until finally I couldn’t bear to hear them anymore. I dropped the phone from my hands and ran out of the room, Amanda close behind, but not close enough. I slammed the door in her face and ran down the hallway, trying to understand what Alex had just told me. He had… cheated on me? I let out a cry as the realization hit me. He had always said he would never, ever do that to me. After Stan… I shook my head, wanting the thought out of my head, and grabbed my car keys and Amanda’s cell phone, since I had left mine upstairs. I wrote Amanda a note, just to be safe, and I took off towards my car jumping in and gunning the engine.
 
I needed to get away.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
(Amanda’s P.O.V.)
I walked slowly back to the bed, picking up Courtney’s phone, out of which Alex was screaming desperately, “Courtney? COURTNEY!!! Hello?? Come on, please, let me explain!” As much as I felt like hanging up on the douche bag, I knew I needed to hear what Courtney hadn’t stayed to listen to.
 
“Alex… what the fuck have you done?” I yelled angrily into the phone. “Now she’s run off and you’ve gone and ruined everything!” I thought of what had happened with Stan and Courtney… not a good idea. I shook it off. “Just… what exactly happened?” I asked him, sighing.
 
“Well, see, we were at this bar and I got drunk, really, really drunk and I started hitting on the waitress and the bar was closing so she brought us to this hotel and I guess before she left she was all like, “How about a kiss?” and I kept saying no, that I already had a girlfriend, but she must’ve gotten the best of me cause I ended up making out with her, but then I pushed her off and ran inside the room and threw up and passed out,” he explained all in one breath. He stopped, letting the sobs overtake him. “Jack filmed it all, cause he thought it was fucking funny. How insensitive can you fucking be?” Alex yelled. “Wait a sec.” I heard him put his hand over the mouthpiece of his phone and I heard him say something to someone. “Ok, I’m back. Umm, this might not be helpful right now, but we’re like twenty minutes from your house.”
 

“What the fuck?” I yelled. How could he be here? They were supposed to be on tour! “Did you leave the tour or something? Cause you’re supposed to be on stage, like, now,” I said sarcastically.
 
“Actually, we told them that we’d be missing the rest of the shows cause of family problems,” Alex replied in all seriousness.
 
My jaw dropped. They were really gonna leave the tour cause of Courtney? “You really care about her, don’t you? I’m not stupid enough to think that you don’t care about leaving the tour, cause I know you do, but you care about her more than that. I guess I should probably tell you about Stan, then.”
 
“Stan?” Alex exclaimed. “Who’s Stan?”
 
“Stan is Courtney’s ex-boyfriend. She was just a sophomore when she met him, while he was in college. See, he used to tutor high school kids, he’d give classes at the library. He was her tutor, but they really hit it off and they started dating not long after she started taking her lessons. They went out for about a year, and from the outside, it looked like everything was fine, but it really wasn’t. He started pressuring her to have sex with him at some point, and you could tell he was really angry she kept saying no. One day, their anniversary was coming up and Courtney wanted to surprise Stan at the library, but when she found him, he was cheating on her with some whore. It turns out he had been cheating on her for four months, and after she found out, she swore that if another guy ever did that to her, she would never forgive him,” I concluded.
 
“Oh, shit. So that’s why she’s really taking it badly?” he asked.
 
“And why there is a very slim chance she’ll forgive you,” I said sadly.
“Well, where is she now?”
 
I thought about it. “I’m pretty sure I know, but I can’t tell you.” I walked downstairs, checking to see if she had left me a note. “She left me a note.”
 
“Well what does it say?” Alex asked eagerly.
 
I read it out loud. “Amanda: I’m going to where you think I’m going. I need to be alone for a while. Love you, Court.”
 
“What the fuck does that mean?” he yelled out in frustration.
 
“I’m sorry, Alex. I can’t tell you,” I said softly and hung up the phone.
 
------------------------
comments??

Happy 23rd birthday Alex!!
 
thought i'd make a set for his birthday.
 
thank you for everything you've done for me, for helping me through all the hard times i've been through. you guys have always been there for me and never let me down. thank you for that. I'll never be able to pay you back for that.
 
Happy Birthdayy!

had to repost this...considering how hopeful I am...and my best friend just got a boyfriend...and i'm still hoping...
 
Girl is on the couch​ makin​g out with a hot guy, her cellp​hone rings​.

Girl:​
Hey babe,​ I'll be right​ back.​ I need to take this call.

Boy:
Yeah okay.​ Sure.

She walks​ into the next room.

Girl:​
Hey!

Guy ;[on her cellp​hone]​
hey hun, do you think​ we could​ go do somet​hing later​ tonig​ht?​

Girl:​
Yeah,​ sound​s great​!​

Guy :[on her cellp​hone]​
Okay.​ I'm right​ by your house​,​ I'll come to get you now.

Girl:​
That ...'​s not ... ... such a good idea.

Guy: [on her cellp​hone]​
Why not?

Girl:
I'm busy right​ now. sorry​.

Guy [on her cellp​hone]​
With what?​ It's our anniv​ersar​y!​ You didn'​t make any other​ plans​ did you.

In her head she yells​,​ CRAP!​ Throw​s cloth​es back on quick​ly.

Girl:​
No No. I was just eatin​g.​ with the famil​y.

Guy [on her cellp​hone]​
But I thoug​ht you said your famil​y was away this weeke​nd,​ up at your resor​t?​

The guy walks​ into her house​,​ turns​ the corne​r into the hallw​ay.

goes downs​tairs​,​and finds​ his best frien​d on her couch​,​ half un-​dress​ed,​​ tryin​g to pull his pants​ back on and his girlf​riend​ pulli​ng her shirt​ over her head.

Guy:
What the hell is going​ on?!

Girl:​​​
I can expla​in!​​​ Pleas​e liste​n to me!

Guy:
Benny​?​​​ How could​ you do this to me! Rache​l!​​​
I thoug​ht you loved​ me! And yet, your sleep​ing with MY BEST FRIEN​D!​​​!​​​!​​​!​​​

Girl:​​​
John.​​​.​​​.

John with tears​ in his eyes,​​​ he rushe​s out of room,​​​ and slams​ the door.

Benny​ climb​s out of the windo​w,​​​ start​s his car, and drive​s off down the stree​t.

Girl runs after​ her boyfr​iend.​​​ Yelli​ng.​​​.​​​.​​​.

Girl:​​​
NOOOO​!​​​ Pleas​e!​​​!​​​ Come back John!​​​!​​​ Pleee​eeass​sse?​​​?​​​?​​​?​​​!​​​!​​​

She falls​ down and cries​.

John turns​ aroun​d,​​​ looks​ strai​ght at his girlf​riend​ in tears​.

john:​​​
Why? Rache​l,​​​ why? I loved​ you! Oh my God, I'm in love with a whore​.

Does this mean I have to pay you now?​​​!​​​
Here take this as the cash.​​​ He drops​ a ring box on her lap.

She opens​ the ring box. Her jaw drops​.​​​.​​​.

Befor​e her eyes is a diamo​nd weddi​ng ring.

Girl:​​​
You were going​ to propo​se?​​​

Guy:
Yeah.​​​.​​​.

Gurl:
how dumb was I?

And as he slowl​y walke​d back to his car, his headl​ights​ faded​
... And she was in despa​ir.

Later ​ that night​,​​​ the girl got a phone​ call from the polic​e sayin​g he had died of an overd​ose of drugs​ and when they found​ him he had a pictu​re of her and him in his hands​

If you love/​like someo​ne,​ and you want them in your life forev​er,​​​
repos​t in 380 secon​ds as "​cheat​ing hurts​.

 
Or your true love will walk away from you.

Did you know that every​ night​ b4 u go to sleep​ there​ is 1 perso​n of the oppos​ite sex think​ing of you.

they want to kiss you, they want to be with you,
they are alway​s think​ing about​ you, this is all true.

if u repos​t this in 5 min the perso​n that is longi​ng to be with you will appro​ach you withi​n 1 month​ and eithe​r ask you out or grab you and kiss you

so me and my boyfriend are fighting right now, basically over that dumb new black ops game. hes been grounded for about a week now and hasn't been able to hang out. and through out the weeks he's been playing that game--don't get me wrong i dont give a shi.t if hes playing it.
 
but we havent been talking that much and we only see each other in school. and i jsut feel like that he doesn't miss me or anything.
 
so tonight he texts me and asks whats wrong and i tell him that i'm upset and try to talk to him about it. then he starts flippin shi.t saying that i'm blaming him becuase he hasn't been able to hang out--which im not! i never said that it was his fault that he got grounded.
 
then he says that all i do is bit.ch about it. i try to talk to him about it--not bi.tch. hes getin the two mixed up. and i told him that i just miss him and if he's getting mad about that theni dont know what to say. which is true, what am i supposed to say to that?
 
now he's not answering me. my sister said to give him time, but if he doesn't answer then to call him. i don't know if i wanna do that. but at the same time i dont want him being all pissed off at me.
 
oh! and the best part is that this girl onhis facebook is saying that she wants to hang out with him this weekend and i guess their hanging out this weeked.
 
awesome?
 
screw you?
 
i've only been waiting about two weeks to see you and hang out with you then when you i do you decied that you don't wanna hang out with me? da.mn thanks i feel special and get that you love me.
 
what do i do? can someone please help me??

Here's chapter six.
i like this chapter
so i hope you do:)
 
-----------Chapter Six
“Amber Lynn….what have you gotten yourself into?” my dad asked. After I finished talking to the guys and figuring things out, I decided that it was best to call my dad and tell him everything that happened in the past 24 hours. I’m an only child and I’m all he has left. He gets worried when I don’t call him when I get home, he’s the type of dad that makes my carry a can of pepper spray in my purpose and makes me hold my key between my fingers when I’m walking out to my car.
 
I sighed and sat down in the back lounge. The guys told me to make myself at home, and I did. It was kind small when your sharing it with 5 or 6 guys. “It wasn’t my fault dad, they forgot me! You should be happy that Jack was there with me or who knows what would’ve happened to me.” I defended. You would think that he would be a little more calm after I told him that I’m now touring with a band for a few weeks, but no. he flipped.
 
He sighed heavily. “Amber, I’d rather have you with your friends then with a bunch of guys you don’t even know! None the less one guy that almost killed you.” my dad said, anger rising in his voice again.
 
“Dad, there really nice guys and I’m really grateful that they took me in like an old friend of theirs. They could’ve just kicked me off at the next stop their making.”
 
“Which if they did I would kick thei-”
 
“But their not dad. Go Google them if you want. There not bad guys.” I said for what felt like the millionth time. I leaned back onto the couch and played with a pillow. In the background, I heard my dad typing away on the keyboard. Only my dad would really Google them.
 
“what the hell! Two of them look like girls--Amber…what are they doing in their underwear?” he asked. Oh…I remember Ashley telling me that their most famous picture of them is of them in their underwear. Guess he found it.
 
“I don’t know, I’m not them so don’t ask me. And no they don’t dad, their actually really cute.” I said and smiled a little. Thinking of Jack’s flat ironed hair that stuck up a little in the back. And Alex’s messy yet perfect hair.
 
Again, he sighed heavily. By the end of this conversation, he’s gonna be having a heart attack. “Amber, I just don’t get it. How do you go from Chris--a nice kid that has a lot of for him, college, football, having a family. For these….I guess guys. They didn’t even go to college Amber, their in a band that’s probably gonna be a sellout. D-did you change your morals?” he asked.
 
How dare he. I thought he would be proud of me, breaking up with Chris because he cheated on me. Be taken in by the nicest group of guys I’ve ever met. But no, all he could look at was the negatives. “I can’t believe you dad.” I huffed. “I thought you would be proud, but I guess I thought wrong.” I had to blink back my tears and hope that my voice didn’t crack. “I’m gonna go now dad, I’ll talk to you later. Oh and I broke up with Chris because he was cheating on me, I didn’t change my morals. Bye dad.” I said in a harsh tone and hung up, without even listening to what he would respond with, frankly I didn’t even care.
 
I set my phone on the couch and rested my head on my knees. It seemed like things we’re falling apart within the last 48 hours. The only plus? Meeting Rian, Zack, Alex, and Jack.
“You ok?” a voice suddenly said. I lifted my head and saw Zack standing in the doorway.
 
I nodded and pushed a piece of hair behind my ear. “Uh, no not really.” I said and laughed softly. I expect Zack just to walk away or not even care to listen, but instead he came over and sat down next to me.
 
“Was that your dad?” he asked. I nodded. “Sorry, I wasn’t stropping, but you can kinda hear everything that everyone talks about. The bus is kinda small and with people always talking,”
 
“Its ok, I thought someone was gonna end up hearing our conversation.” I said and brushed a tear away.
 
“Wanna talk about it?” he asked. I looked at him, surprised. “You don’t have to if you don’t want to.”
 
I shook my head. “No, no I do. I just--no ones ever cared this much to listen.” I smiled a little.
 
Zack smiled. “Well like Alex people think I’m a dou.che because I’m quiet, but I’m not. I do care about people.” he laughed.
 
I laughed. “Well basically, my dads pissed because I’m with you guys and not my friends.” I started.
The next half hour was spent sitting in the back lounge talking to Zack about everything that my dad and I talked about. It was nice talking to him, he actually listened to what I had to tell him. It was nice talking to someone who cared. He felt bad about what my dad was telling me, he felt bad about the whole Chris situation and thought it was just as fu.cked up as I did, but no one else seemed to think that it was fu.cked up. Well besides Tara. He laughed when I told him that my dad said Alex and Jack looked like girls. Laughed when my dad flipped about seeing them in their underwear, and at he same time he felt violated. Then he asked me something--something that I never thought about.
 
“Why does your dad treat you like your five?” he asked, not in a rude or disrespecting tone.
 
I bit my lip thinking of an answer. Why does my dad treat me like I am a little girl still? “I don’t…know. I’m an only child that might have something to do with it, along with being a major daddy’s girl,” I laughed. “other then that I don’t know.” I shrugged.
 
“What about your mom? What does she think about all of this?” he asked.
 
I looked down. “Uh…that’s a another story for another time.” I said. I expected him to ask why, and to bug me to just tell him now, but he didn’t.
 
“Ok, whenever your ready.” he said. “hey I think we stopped.” he said and stood up. I followed him out to the small kitchen area where Jack was sitting on the counter.
 
I looked at him confused. “Were you sitting there the whole time?” I asked him. He nodded and uncrossed his legs. “Why?”
 
He shrugged. “Because you were in the back on the phone and I didn’t wanna come back while you were on the phone, so I just sat out here.” he explained.
 
I smiled. “Aww Jack, you so nice!” I said and gave him a hug.
 
He laughed and hugged me back. “I guess you could say that…” he trailed off.
 
“Let’s go check this shit out.” Alex said walking out of the bus. We all followed him off the bus and into the small club. When we walked in people were setting up the small stage and moving table out of the way. I just stood to the side, by a bar area that was in the back.
 
“You look uncomfortable.” Rian suddenly said, standing next to me.
 
I shrugged. “Nah its just the dress.” I laughed. I was still in my little cocktail dress that I wore out last night. I gave Jack his sweat pants back earlier because I didn’t want to walk around with a pair of pants under my dress. Although I would probably be more comfortable.
 
“I can get you a shirt, but I don’t know what you wanna do about pants.” Rian laughed a little.
 
“I know, I need to go shopping.” I said and laughed.
 
“Ok, we can probably go today since we don’t have anything else to till…7:30. I’ll go grab you a shirt and look for a pair of Jack or Alex’s pants that’ll fit you.” Rian said. Before I could stop him he was already out the door and looking through a box for a shirt. While I stood there waiting for him to come back with my change of clothes, a girl with short black hair with some red highlight in it, came walking up to me.
 
“Are you here for the show already?” she asked, looking a little confused.
 
I shook my head. “No, I’m just waiting for Rian to come back.” I said.
 
The confused look disappeared a little. “Oh your with All Time Low?” she asked me.
 
I laughed. “Um I guess you could say that.”
 
“I haven’t seen you here before…” she trailed off.
 
“Its kind of a long story.” I laughed.
 
“We have time, their just setting up for the show tonight.” she smiled. We sat down at a table off to the side and I told her everything that happened and how I ended up with the guys.
 
“That’s horrible, but its good that Jack was there with you. I’m just surprised that…he remembered something.” she laughed.
 
I laughed. “That’s what everyone else said.”
 
“I’m Joanna by the way. I’m the lead singer of City Comma State.” she said.
 
“I’m Amber.” I smiled.
“If you need anything, just let me know. I know what its like being the only girl with a bunch of guys. Its nice having another girl on tour now.” she laughed.
 
“Thank you so much.”
 
Then she looked at my dress. “Do you have any clothes with you?”
 
I shook my head. “Nope. Rian’s getting me a change of clothes, then I think we’re going shopping.” I explained.
 
“Sweet deal. Well I gotta go, so I’ll see you later tonight.” she smiled and walked up to the stage where she started talking to her band.
Rian came walking back in holding a pair of jeans and a black tee shirt. When he handed me the tee shirt, I looked at it, on the front it was their tour logo, along with “My small Package Tour” on the front with a guys holding a present into front of his…uh…well package. On the back it was just their tour dates and cities.
 
“There’s a bathroom, right around the corner.” Rian said and started to walk away, but then turned on his heels and handed me a belt. I looked at him confused. “I figured that Alex’s jeans would be to big so I grabbed a belt for you.” he laughed.
 
I laughed. “Thank you.” I said and walked to the bathroom and shut the door. I slipped off my dress--it felt so good to get out of that thing. I pulled on the shirt and Alex’s jeans--Rian was right, they were really big around the waist and kind of baggy. But I could work them. I slipped my heels back on and walked back out.
 
“Wow that…one interesting look you got there.” Alex said from behind me,
 
I turned and laughing and shrugged. “Its what I have to work with. Until I go shopping.”
 
He nodded. “Understandable. So let’s go.” he said and started walking towards the door.
 
“We’re going now?” I asked him.
 
I shrugged. “Why not? There’s nothing else to do and you obviously need clothes. Unless you want to wear mine the rest of the tour.” he said and a smirk grew on his face. I smiled and looked down to hide my blush. I couldn’t help it, and I couldn’t help that whenever he smiled at me my heart would beat faster.
 
“Where you going?!” Jack yelled.
 
“Shopping.” Alex yelled back.
 
“Ah! I wanna go!” Jack yelled and came running out with us.
 
--------------
like it? please comment it:)
ohh and City (comma) States gonna be in a little.
I met Joanna the night of my concert and she's SOO nice, that's why i put her in here:)

i wanted to post a chapter before i wrote more tonight.
probably the only chapter for tonight, so its up so late.
btw i thought this story was going to be different from what i planned, and it really is. it kind just fell into place and i thought of this idea and i'm kinda going with it haha
but here's the chapter, i hope you like it:)
 
--------------------------
Chapter Five
 
Rian started cracking up. “Obviously not like that.” he laughed and pointed to my facial expression.
 
“Really?” I asked, scared to know the answer.
 
He bit down on his lip. “Sorry? Look I didn’t know that we were driving during the night or I never would’ve brought you back! But you were upset because your friends left without you-”
 
“Oh my god. Their going to kill me! Their gonna think I’m dead!” I cried and sat down at the table.
 
“Are you ok?” Rian asked.
 
I shook my head. “No, not really.” I said. Now Jack was gone.
 
“At least he brought you back. He’s really irresponsible. He can’t even remember to bring back his guitar none the less a person.” Rian laughed.
 
“Wonderful.” I mumbled and slumped down in the seat.
 
“It’ll be ok.”
 
“how? I don’t know any of you guys, I don’t have any change of clothes, I have no clue where my phone is and my friends are going to kill me once they find out what happened.” I explained.
 
“Look,” Rian said and leaned on the table. “It’ll all be ok. We’re not harmful--at least we don’t try to be. If you need to talk to your friends that bad we have phone. We have clothes we can lend you or we have a bunch of merch that you can use. There’s ways around this. If you want you can probably hang with us on tour.”
 
I looked at him, taking in everything that he just told me. He was being so nice and sweet--taking in a total stranger. “That’s really sweet of you guys to do that, but…I don’t really know you guys and I don’t want to be a bother for you.” I said and shrugged. I felt bad saying that I didn’t know them, when he was offering to take me in, like I was an old friend of theirs.
 
Rian simply shrugged. “We’re not bad people, only when we’re drunk.” he laughed. “but seriously, if you want to stay its fine with me. I’m sure it’ll be cool with Jack to since he brought you back. Zack and Alex will be cool with it to. And as far as not knowing us, get to know us. We’re not that complicated.” he laughed again.
 
I sighed and leaned back. “Ok, just for a few days until I get close to home.” I said.
 
Rian rubbed the back of his neck. “Uh about that….we only kinda go further out, not really back towards, Towson.”
 
“Shit.” I mumbled. “Wait how’d you know I’m from Towson?” I asked him.
 
He shrugged. “I just guessed.” he laughed a little.
 
I laughed. “Ok as long as I don’t bother you guys.” I said.
 
“You won’t, I’ll show you around and introduce you to everyone. Make sure that you have someone to hang with at the shows, that you have a place to sleep. I’m gonna be like your older brother basically.” Rian laughed.
I started laughing. “Ok, thank you this is all really nice you of.” I said in a more serious tone now.
 
“Its not a big deal. I’d be scared shitless if I woke up on a tour bus full of random guys that I didn’t know.” he laughed.
 
“Well two of my friends know who you are, I just didn’t.” I said and shrugged. “but I heard your songs and I like them!” I said and smiled.
 
“Well thank you….” he trailed off, looking for me to say my name.
 
“Oh I’m Amber.” I smiled. “sorry that’s really rude of me.”
 
He shrugged and stood up and grabbed a water bottle out of the fridge. By now Jack came walking back out in a pair of boxers and sat down next to me.
 
“Its all good. Oh Jack, Amber’s staying with us for a bit.” Rian said and sat back down across from us.
 
“Really?! Sweet!” he said and high fived me
 
Rian laughed and spun the water bottle on the table. “I told you Jack would like the idea.” he said to me. “she just needs clothes and a phone…and a place to sleep.”
 
Jack nodded. “Ok she can use some merch stuff. And I think I have your phone….somewhere.” Jack said and started looking behind him.
 
“How do you have my phone?” I asked him.
 
He looked at me, his eyes narrowed and a smirk playing on his lips. “Oh you don’t wanna know the answer to that.”
 
My jaw dropped. I didn’t do anything with him last night--as least that I don’t remember. “What-how? We didn’t do anything!” I cried.
 
Jack and Rian started cracking up. Jack got up, reached into his bunk and pulled out my phone and handed it to me. “I know we didn’t, you passed out. I just thought it would be funny to see your reaction.” Jack laughed and sat back down.
 
I let out a breath. “Don’t do that, you scared me.” I said and laughed a little.
 
“Dude, we HAVE to play this game! Everyone’s talking about it!” a voice said from the back, started making their way up to the front.
 
“we don’t have yet.” another said.
 
“Point? I’ll make a point to stop and get it.” the guy appeared that was with Jack yesterday…Alex! He was also shirtless and so was the other guy behind him. The guy had a bunch of tattoos on his chest that were different colors, and the body he had--oh my god.
“Oh shit! She lives!” Alex yelled once he noticed me and laughed.
 
I laughed. “Yes I am.” I smiled.
 
“Wait…why are here? Unless we all died and went to heaven, but I think we’d go to hell…” he trailed off.
 
I laughed. “I met Jack at a club last night, and-”
 
“She was tired, her friends left here. I was being a gentleman and brought her back here, she fell asleep and I didn’t know we were driving through the night,” Jack explained.
 
“So I told her that she could stay with us for awhile because we’re not close to home. So…yeah she’s staying with us.” Rian told them.
 
Alex leaned on the counter. “I see. Problem,” he said, his head bent down and he held up his index finger. “clothes? Sleep?”
 
“For now she’s gonna use some merch, and she can sleep in the lounge or sleep with someone.” Rian said.
 
“Or,” I said, cutting in. “wherever you guys stop, I can go shopping so I don’t cost you guys money.” I said. I think I had one of my credit cards with me.
 
“that could work,” Alex said. “This is gonna work.” he nodded.
 
“I just feel bad, you guys are so nice and…I don’t know you.” I said quietly.
 
“Pssttt you’ll know us by the end of the week.” Alex said.
 
“Ok, thank you guys again.” I smiled. I don’t think they realized how much I appreciated this--everything they were doing for me. How sweet and understanding they were being.
 
“Shouldn’t you call your friends?” Jack suddenly said.
 
I looked down at my phone--no missed calls. Nice guys, real nice. “No, their probably sleeping.” I said quietly. Kind of upset that they didn’t even notice that they left me there at the club, that I could be missing right now.
 
“Oh this is Zack by the way.” Alex suddenly said. “people think he’s a dou.che but he’s just quiet.”
 
“Its true.” Zack said.
 
I nodded. This seems like its going to be fun, something I can get use to. Something new. And I was all for it.
 
----------------------------
there it is:) Comment please?? next chapter will pronbably be up by tomorrow

So here's the second chapter for tonight.
i kinda like this chapter--more towards the end though.
i'm going to try to go to bed now
 
-------------------------
Chapter Four
“Oh hey.” I smiled back, playing with my straw.
 
“You’re the girl I almost killed!” he pointed out. Wow really? That’s how your going to remember me? Don’t most guys remember a girl by their hair color, or something stupid they did? Well I guess almost killing me is something stupid.
 
I laughed. “Yeah, but its all good.” I said.
 
He laughed. “Ok, you know I don’t wanna kill a hot girl like you.” he winked again. Why’s he always winking?
 
“Uh thanks, I think?” I laughed. “Wait,” I said suddenly remembering that when we asked them to come out with us, they said they had a concert to go to. “I thought you said you guys were doing a concert?” I asked.
 
He shrugged. “We did. We usually try to go out after our concerts.”
 
“That’s cool.” I smiled. Now I didn’t know what to talk about.
 
He looked over his shoulder and rocked on his feet for a few seconds. “So do you wanna get a drink?” he asked.
 
I looked down at my Sex on the beach, still half full. Thank god Tara told me what to do if I ever got stuck in this kind of a situation--if you still have your drink, chug what’s left and get another one with the guy. And I did just that. I chugged the rest of my drink and set the glass down on a small table.
 
Jack laughed. “I’ll take that as a yes.” he said and started making his way through the crowd. This time I just got a beer instead of some type of fancy drink. I squeezed the time into my beer then looked at Jack--who was leaning against the bar. I looked around and noticed that there wasn’t a million people swarming around him and asking for his autograph or anything.
 
“Can I ask you something?” I asked randomly. He looked at me and nodded. “Is this…usual for you?”
 
He looked at me confused. “what do you mean?” he asked.
 
“Like not having people coming up to you and stuff. I mean I don’t wanna sound like a fan girl or anything because I didn’t even know who you guys were.” I rambled off. Awesome now he’s gonna think I’m a fame who.re or something.
 
Jack laughed and sipped his beer. “When we go out, we usually don’t have fan asking for us to sign stuff. I mean sometimes we do, but most of our older fans just party with us.” he shrugged. “and don’t worry I know your not a fan girl.” he laughed.
 
I laughed. “Ok, I was just wondering.” I said and played with the rim of my bottle.
 
“So why were you so upset earlier?” he asked.
I sollowed hard. “Uh…just relationship shit. That’s why I came out--to get my mind off of it.” I told him.
 
“Oh got it.” he said and chugged his beer and asked for another.
 
“Amber!” Ashley yelled.
 
“Yeah?”
 
“Come here!” she yelled and pulled me away from the bar.
 
“I’ll be right back.” I told Jack. “what are you doing?!” I asked a very drug Ashley.
 
“he hooks up.” she spat out. I just looked at her. “I mean…he don’t do relationships. He just hooks up with girls then leaves.”
 
Me eyebrows knit together. I thought that they were all telling me to just hook up with someone? “But…I thought that I was going to hook up with someone?” I asked.
 
She nodded and her eyes started to close. “You can and will…j-just not him.” she rubbed her hand across her cheek.
 
I just sighed and shook my head and walked back up to the bar and got another beer. Looks like I won’t be hooking up with anyone tonight. “Sorry about that.” I said to Jack.
 
He waved it off. “Its all good. You need your girl time.” he laughed
 
I laughed. “I guess you could say that.”
 
“Your friend looks a little-”
 
“Like a mess? Yeah I know.” I finished for him.
 
He laughed. “I was gonna say gone, but a mess--sure that fits to.”
 
I sipped my beer. “Yeah my friends brought me out looking for a hook up but..” I trailed off. I don’t even know why I said that or what made me say that. But as soon as I did, I regretted it.
 
“Oh really? They seem like good friends.” he laughed a little.
 
“They are, but I don’t know. I’m not the hook up type. Only if its right you know?” I said. Where was I going with this?! It felt like someone else was in my body talking for me. Like I was telling him that I do hook up but only if it leads to a relationship.
 
He nodded. “Yeah I know what you mean.” he said.
 
~~~~~
After more drinks and beers everything became a blur. I don’t really remember much. I only remember talking to Jack, laughing, talking, and flirting. A lot of flirting. I couldn’t find Tara, Ashley, or Jess. So Jack took my back to his bus, where he laid me down somewhere in the back.
 
“Do you want sweats or anything?” he asked. The bus was loud, really loud. Along with a lot of music playing, singing, someone yelling about Mickey Mouse and fish.
 
“Yes please.” I said and ruffled my hair. Jack walked off to get me sweats and I heard someone yell ‘tap that’ or something along those lines.
 
Jack came back with the sweat pants and handed them to me. I slipped them on under my dress and snuggled up on the couch.
 
“You can sleep in my bunk.” Jack told me.
 
“But then where are you sleeping?” I asked him.
 
He looked around. “Either out here or the bunk with you.” he said. I nodded and stood up and followed him to his bunk.
 
“Top one.” he said and pointed to the third bunk. I looked back at him, how am I supposed to get up there? He must’ve read my mind because the next thing he did was pick me up and gently set me down on his bunk and climbed up himself. He laid down at the opposite end. I made sure that I didn’t cover his face with the blanket or hit in the face with my feet before I fell asleep.
 
~~~~~
“Oh shit!” I heard someone yell. I pulled the blanket tighter around me. Something hit me then the next thing I knew I was laying on the ground.
 
“Ow.” was all I managed to get out. I felt dizzy and my vision was a little blurry. “A-are we moving?” I asked as I felt my stomach start to turn and as I heard things rattling.
 
“shit I’m sorry.” Jack said and helped me up. “I was trying to get out because um…how do I explain this….your um..”
 
“Jack just tell the girl!” a guy with a shaved head yelled.
 
“Rian how am I supposed to tell a hung-over girl that she’s going to Iowa City with us?!” Jack yelled back.
 
“Iowa City?!” I repeated.
 
This is not going to be good.
 
----------------------
there it is:) comment? tell me what you think so far:)

i passed my driver's test! now all i have to do is pass behind the wheel yayy! Anyway, here's the chapter, i might be able to post another tonight because i don't have any homework. And cause my boyfriend's kinda ignoring me cause he's playing that new Black Opps game or whatever-_-
 
---------------------------------
Chapter Three
After I told Tara the whole story about Chris, I was ready to go home. I just wanted to be alone for a little bit. You know when your sad and you have a reason to be sad, but everyone else thinks that you should be angry? Yeah that’s what I feel like. I know I’m upset, but Tara’s telling me not to and that I’m to good for him. Ok, so maybe I should be but at this moment right now, I want to be sad and upset. Let me have my time to get over it, then I’ll be angry and get over it.
I drove back to my house and pulled into the driveway. After I shut my car off, I just sat there thinking. Why? Why did this have to happen? A few weeks ago I thought I was in love and that we were going to end up getting married. And now…the perfect boyfriend I thought I had turned out to be a lying cheater.
I got out and went inside and threw my damp hoodie over a chair and started cleaning up the kitchen that was a mess. I was in the middle of washing dishes when the front door and someone came running into the kitchen.
 
“Amber Lynn!” Ashley yelled as she rounded the corner. She sounded like my mom, using my middle name.
 
I turned off the water and dried my hands and turned around to see Ashley standing there, in her bright red Glamour Kills hoodie and iphone in hand. “Hey Ash, what’s up?” I asked.
 
Her eyes grew wide. “What’s up?! How about meeting half of my favorite band EVER and not telling me?!” she yelled.
 
I sighed. “Sorry Ash. I didn’t even know who they were.”
 
“Well you should have. That’s all me and Tara talk about. You know while you and Jess are talking about internships, shoes and whatever else you talk about.” she rolled her eyes and sat down on a barstool and took an apple.
 
“I know, I’m a shitty friend thanks.” I sighed and shut the lights off in the kitchen.
 
Ashley groaned. “That’s not what I meant Amber.”
 
“Then what did you mean?” I asked her, kind of snapping on her. “’cause all you seem to care about is how I met them because they almost killed me. Not that I found out my boyfriend doesn’t love me anymore and has been cheating on me.” I said. My eyes were burning from holding tears back, so I just let them out.
 
Ashley’s facial expression softened as she pulled me into a hug. “Aw Amber, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean it like that, I got caught up--you know fan girl set in. Tara told me about Chris, though.” she pulled away and looked at me. “I’m really sorry, he’s an ass.hole that didn’t know what he had. Now he’s with a sl.ut and we’re gonna kill her!” she yelled the last part.
 
I laughed and brushed away a few tears. “Let’s not go that far Ash.”
 
She nodded and took a bit of her apple. “Ok, we won’t. but I’m not promising that I won’t do anything to her car. I know where Chris lives.”
 
I nodded. “I know Ash, I know.”
 
“You know what you need?” she suddenly asked.
 
“A spa day?” I guessed. That sounded pretty good to me.
 
She rolled her eyes. “You sound like Jess, so you can go with her. But no, drinks!” she smiled wide. “And maybe a little hook up with a cutie at the bar.” she winked.
 
There wasn’t any getting out of this, Tara was talking about it all day so I had to go. Maybe it would make me feel better. And maybe Ashley’s right, hookup with someone. “Ok. What time?” I asked.
 
She looked at me, taken back. “Your…not arguing….” she trailed off.
 
I laughed. “Because I do need it.”
 
“Yes! Be ready for 9, we’ll make it a long night.” she winked and started heading for the door.
 
“Please stop winking.” I said, following her to the door.
 
“Oh? Why?”
 
“Because that’s all Jack was doing to me after he peed.” I told her. And here comes the screaming….but she didn’t scream.
 
“Are you kidding!? Amber-”
 
“I’m gonna go take, a nap--get rested for tonight.” I said to her and shut the door, making sure to lock it this time. The last thing I wanted was for someone else to come running through my door yelling at my for something that I failed to tell them. Maybe I should just post this whole experience on Facebook….no forget that.
I walked up to my room and crawled under my blankets. I turned my phone off and shut the blinds. I was ready to forget about Chris.
 
~~~~~
Straighener thrown on the floor. Short, mid thigh cut dresses thrown over the end of the footboard. Heels on the opposite side of the room. Make up dusted on my dresser, along with mismatching perfume caps on perfumes.
That’s the best way to describe my bedroom right now. Jess was sitting on my bed working on her make up, while Tara danced around out in the living with Ashley. They were ready and waiting for us.
 
“So are you ready for this?” Jess asked me, her blonde hair falling on around her shoulders.
 
I nodded. “Yes, I need to get out.” I laughed. I walked over to the mirror and pulled down my black and blue stripped sequined halter dress.
 
“Let’s go!” Ashley yelled from the living room. I looked over my shoulder and Jess was standing up filling her clutch with little random things.
 
“Come on.” she said once she was finished. I turned my light off and grabbed my house keys and walked out to Jess’s car. She was driving to because she doesn’t really like to drink that much when we go out, so she’s our driver. We piled into her car and drove off to the club.
 
~~~~~
“God we look so hot.” Ashley said, leaning on me. I was standing at the bar waiting for my drink.
 
“What are you getting?” she asked me, sipping something threw a little red straw.
 
“Sex on the beach.” I laughed.
 
“Whatever you need to get your mind off of Chris.” she laughed and grabbed a cherry out of a dish.
 
“I don’t think your aloud to eat those…” I trailed off.
 
“Of whatever.” she rolled her eyes and threw the stem at the bartender that was handing me my drink.
 
“Thanks.” he smirked at her and handed me my drink. She just winked at him and turned on her heels and walked away. I took my drink and followed her threw all the dancing people and to our table.
 
At the table Jess and Tara looked like they were talking about something important but as soon as we sat down they stopped talking. “Why are we sitting down?” Tara asked. Ashley just shrugged and got up and walked off somewhere. There’s no stopping her once she get’s a few drink in her.
 
“She’s probably going to get the bartenders number.” I laughed and stirred my drink.
 
“C’mon on! We need to dance and get wasted!” Tara yelled and pulled me out of my chair and onto the dance floor. “Now….just to find you a hot guy…”she trailed off and scanned the room. She eyes grew wide and she pushed me toward a taller guy with black hair. I bumped into him and a little bit of my drink spilled out.
 
“Oh sh.it! I’m sorry.” I said. He turned around and my jaw dropped.
 
“Hey.” he winked and smirked at me. I couldn’t help but smile back.
 
------------------------
there is it, i hope you liked it:)

Here's chapter 2
i don't really like it:/
but i hope you do
its like...1 am here and i wanted to post if before i went to bed, so here it is:)
 
-----------------
 
Chapter Two
It wasn’t that far of a car ride to Tara’s house, which deep down I was thankful for only because I didn’t know them. And his friend Jack was kind of scaring me. We pulled up to Tara’s house and he pulled up into the drive.
 
“Thank you so much, I really appreciate it.” I smiled and undid my seatbelt.
 
“No problem.” he smiled.
 
“Dude Alex, I have to pee.” Jack said.
 
Alex rolled his eyes. “Dude we’re like 10 minutes from my house, you can’t hold it?” he asked. All you heard from the back seat was a whimper. “Dude go use a bush!” he suggested.
 
“He can use Tara’s bathroom if you don’t mind waiting for a minute. I’m sure she won’t care.” I said. I felt bad for him, he looked like he was ready for pee himself at any minute.
 
“Please?!” Jack yelled from the backseat.
 
“Fine let’s go.” Alex said and shut the car off. I laughed as I climbed out of the car and watched Jack run up the front stairs and do a little dance outside of Tara’s front door. I opened the door and he ran inside.
 
“Uh…I hope he knows that he doesn’t know where the bathroom is.” I said to Alex and laughed a little.
 
“Where’s the bathroom!” he yelled from the hall.
 
I laughed. “Third door down the hall on the left.” I said and walked into the kitchen with Alex behind me. “Want anything?” I asked and opened the fridge.
 
“Just wat-”
 
“Who the he.ll are you?!” Tara yelled
 
“Your naked!” Jack yelled.
 
“No sh.it!” Tara cried as she came running down the hall with a towel wrapped around her, her hair was dripping wet and she looked like she was about to cry. “A-Amber there’s a stranger in the bathroom! Call the police!” she cried as she looked for her phone.
 
“Tara that’s Jack, don’t worry. I told him he would use the bathroom.” I told her and handed Alex a water bottle.
 
Tara turned around, and her eyes widened once she saw Alex. “Oh he.ll….shit this is not how I imagined this but it works.” she said.
 
I looked at her confused. “What’s wrong?” I asked her.
 
Alex laughed. “She knows who I am.”
 
“Tara….” I trailed off. “Did you have a one night stand with him?” I asked.
 
She shook her head quickly. “No, I wish though.” she scoffed. “Oh god Amber please tell me you know who he is.” she said and rubbed her temples and walked into her room.
 
I looked back at Alex. “I feel like I’m being so rude,” I laughed. “but I don’t know…” I trailed off.
 
He laughed and set down his water bottle. “Its fine, don’t sweat it. It was kinda nice--you not knowing. But I’m Alex Gaskarth…I’m in the band All Time Low.” he said.
 
I nodded. “Oh I’ve heard a lot about you guys. Tara loves you guys.” I laughed. Now I remembered everything Tara would talk about, the concerts, the guys, the music and how it got her thought a lot of situations. I’ve heard a few of their songs but I’ve never seen them in concert or met them.
 
“I see. But its ok don’t worry.” he laughed and fixed his shirt.
 
I shook my head. “I’m so sorry. I feel like an a.ss. But I have heard a few of your songs and they are amazing.” I told him, which is true. They are amazing, just listening to the lyrics says so much about them.
 
“Thank you.” he smiled.
 
“Dude, that was the best fuc.king pee in my life.” Jack said walking out from the bathroom. “Your friends not bad looking either, but I think your hotter.” he winked at me.
 
I just shook my head. I was not in the mood to be hit on right now. Especially with everything that just happened with Chris, and that’s what brought me back to reality. Aside from meeting a band that Tara loves and being hit on, I still had to deal with Chris. I’m sure I’ll be getting a million phone calls and texts from him today. I also had to tell everyone, meaning my Ashley and Jess, and most importantly my dad. My dad is like my best friend.
 
“Da.mn Amber I gotta admit, I’m impressed you break up with your cheating boyfriend then come home with Alex Gaskarth and Jack Barakat. Wait…how’d you meet them?” Tara asked, walking out of her room, drying her hair with the towel.
 
I rubbed the back of my arm. “I was taking the long way back and uh…Jack almost hit me.” I said and laughed a little. It was one of those moments where at first your completely scared and looked horrified, but then thinking back on it you just laugh.
 
“Oh that’s nice. How’d it go with Chris?” she asked.
 
“Uh we should probably get going.” Alex said and played with the water bottle.
 
We both turned and looked at him. “We’re going out tonight, wanna meet us somewhere?” Tara asked.
 
“Tara-” I started, before getting cut off.
 
“We actually have a show tonight.” Alex frowned.
 
“Oh ok. Well thank you again, so much.” I smiled at them.
 
“Thank you.” Jack winked. Oh gosh.
 
I laughed. “Anytime Jack.”
 
“Well it was nice meeting you two.” Alex smiled and gave us both a hug. We walked them to the door and watched as they fought for a second on who was going to drive then got in the car and drove down the street.
 
“I can’t believe it.” Tara sighed and shit the door.
 
“What?” I asked and sat down on the couch and pulled the blanket over me.
 
“You met the two most important people to me and didn’t know who they where. But its ok, I forgive you.” she laughed.
 
“Thanks.” I said. Then thinking to myself how I probably should’ve talked more or something. Gave them my number or be more out there, like Tara was. But of course I would only think of this when their gone.
I hate dealing with this Chris thing. If I wasn’t thinking about that situation I would’ve been more out there with Alex and Jack. But then again, if I didn’t go to Chris’s house, I would’ve have met them today.
 
“Thank god they live in Towson.” Tara randomly said.
 
My head perked up. “What?”
 
She nodded. “They live in Towson. Well Zack doesn’t, but the rest do.”
 
“….that’s where we live.” I said.
 
She laughed. “No sh.it.”
 
“So we might see them again?” I asked.
 
She nodded. “Maybe, who know.” she shrugged and walked away.
 
I don’t really know what I was thinking, I had just met them and I was already dying to see them again? I was confused and didn’t know what to think. Everything happens for a reason, I believe that, but what’s the reason behind all of this?
 
Tara came back in with a popsicle and sat down. “So what happened with Chris?” she asked.
 
I sighed. And reality was back with its ugly face once again.

------------------
Commet? thoughts?
one the side, is the track list that ATL played at my concert on oct 18th, opening night. it was amazing! best night of my life<3